Where My Life Was vs. Now
Since I was 18 years old, I have been in and out of trouble. I had no intentions of it becoming a problem. I had no intentions of ending up in jail, as a drug addict or homeless. I didn’t wake up one day and decide this. Instead of changing the way I led my life, I let it consume me. My character defects became worse. I fed my ego and never put down my pride. I never cared for anyone but myself. For the longest time, I thought I just needed to get sober and everything would be alright. But that wasn’t the case. I had to change everything about my life.
So, when I entered Rehab in September 2021, I didn’t think I needed to change anything about myself. At first, I didn’t pay attention or listen. After the first 2 weeks, I finally gave in. I was ready to accept the fact that I was the problem. I was selfish, self-seeking, and inconsiderate. From that moment forward, I did my best to work on me.
Today, I try to live my life one day at a time by doing the next right thing. I think positive and I’m grateful. I take notice of my character defects and try to stop them. I ask myself if this is the right thing to do. Would I want my daughter to do this? If the answer is no, then I don’t. And because of all this, I now have a relationship with my daughter, a place to stay, money saved up, and a good future ahead of me. I don’t try to sit there and control any part of my life. I believe in my higher power. I keep doing the next right thing and surrender the outcome to God. He will always have my back!