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I Had No Idea
- arayofhope4u
- 2 days ago
- 2 min read
When I was 8 years old, I was walking out of my bedroom, passing my mother’s room down the hall. I could see the lights on in the kitchen. I heard a very strong man’s voice coming from her room, and he said, “Evan, I love you”. I stopped, cold, scared and frozen. I turned, and nobody was there. In a very short time, it was dismissed as my imagination. It may have been but I can still remember everything from that moment in time.
I was born and raised in San Jose, CA. My mom and dad divorced when I was 7 years old. They both were very hard-working and loving parents. Things changed very quickly when my dad thought I was the product of an affair. I always had a sense he didn’t like me very much. My mother turned to alcohol and other men. As I grew older, I started drinking a lot and wasn’t thinking about much else.
Over the years, I was never interested in God or church. When I had to go to make someone else happy, I would, but I hated every second of it. I was in my late 30’s when I had all I could take. I was sitting on a milk crate. I no longer wanted to be around the people or the place I was in. I heard the same voice I heard as a child. It said get up and move. I did not have a clue what I was going to do or where I was going to go. I was running down the streets of San Diego with no place to go and having no idea what I was doing. I only stopped because I was unable to run anymore. I looked up and the sign in front of me said, San Diego Rescue Mission. I checked in and for the next year, I got to meet the man who had been watching me my whole life.
I am 53 now and I’ve learned a few things. I can and do finally trust someone. Second, I have always been running to Jesus. I had no idea. I am so grateful for my relationship with God and that I was able to share my experience with like-minded people at A Ray of Hope.
I arrived here 2 1/2 months ago when I needed a renewing of hope.
Now I am off again; I just accepted a position as Executive Chef working for a Cruise Line. I hope to start a bible study on the ship.
Blessings, Evan
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