Trusting God

My name is Stephnie. I am a 47-year-old single mother with 9-year-old twins, a boy and a girl. I was born and raised in Sheridan, Wyoming. My parents divorced when I was 6 years old. They both were alcoholics, and as a result, I had to grow up quickly.  I started drinking and using drugs at a very young age. This led to a life characterized by all the typical circumstances that you might assume. I lost jobs, had two failed marriages, both of which were extremely toxic and abusive relationships. Then came jail, probation, and a near-fatal car accident. I have been to treatment several times. I've had and lost everything multiple times, all as a result of my substance use.  I basically estranged myself from my entire family. I have always had a sense of shame and unworthiness. Thankfully, I have my Aunt Wendy, who brought me to the Lord when I was in my early twenties. At that time, I was introduced to Jesus and accepted Him as my Lord and Savior. However, I never really pursued a relationship with Him. I had periods of time when I would go to church, and in my darkest times, I would cry out to Him. Looking back at my life, I could only say that He has never left me. The fact that I'm alive today is nothing short of a miracle. Time and time again, I have been saved by His grace, and now I can see how His discipline has drawn me closer to Him. Over the last year, I found myself again making poor choices, and after 2 years of sobriety, I returned to use. This time, the Train Wreck came quickly. In only a few months, I ended up getting evicted from my apartment, violated my probation, and was back in jail. I was able to get into an inpatient treatment program, and from there was accepted into Peggy's house. Under my circumstances, that was truly a miracle and a blessing from God. Since arriving at Peggy's House, I have had the opportunity to learn what it truly means to walk with God. It has given me the chance to understand the importance of growing a relationship with Him. And for the first time in my life, I understand that first and foremost, I need Jesus. I am so grateful to have him as my Savior, and I can see that He's not done with me yet. I believe that He has a plan for me, plans for hope and a future. I am grateful for this beautiful home, where I get to live now. I'm grateful for all the staff, the ladies, and the people who come to minister to us. This place is truly life-changing. I am so blessed to be here and have the opportunity to heal and recognize what true freedom is. It only comes from God. His mercy is so beautiful. I know that I'll make it if I trust God. I know He is with me in everything I am doing. God can make a way when there is no way.The Lord is my strength and my shield. My heart trusts in Him and He helps me. Psalms 28:7.